The LORD has been truly keeping me through my time of marital separation. It's honestly one of the hardest battles I've ever faced. On every level. But praise God He is showing me how to REST in Him and let Him fight my battles. And that He alone shall RESTore my marriage for His GLORY.
He's also been showing me that He HEARS me! Even now by giving me Hebrews 4, I know He HEARS me and SEES me. I've been in such an uproar about not having any communication. It's been really hard and driving me crazy. I've been asking the Lord if I could respond to my husband or text Him and I kept hearing "be still" or "stand still and see the salvation of the LORD" I told the Lord that I wasn't sure if that was just me talking or something just coming to my head by memory. And even if it was Him it wasn't enough to calm my racing mind. Not to be disrespectful in any way! I just needed more. This separation thing HURTS!
But PRAISE be to GOD He gave me more and He keeps on giving! On the post before this one, He spoke to me directly and comforted me. He told me that I should leave off the calling and texting right now and to focus on interceding on their behalf. And the post before that He wrecked me with Jeremiah 31! You gotta read that one for yourself!
I see now that, the urgency in me to "communicate" is just me not trusting God to be God. He can reach my husband in ways I never could. He ALONE can fix things that I can't even touch. I'll only end up breaking the clay more, or making matters worse by nagging or paragraphing. You know those long paragraph text messages? Men don't even process those things. The enemy will only scatter the frequency. And before you know it "a check-up" turns into all out war.
What a beautiful Father and Lord that offers me such blessing of REST and all I have to do is BELIEVE! I mean this 4th chapter of Hebrews just melted my heart. He showed me that I can cease from my works. It's His Word that's sharper than any 2 two-edged sword! I can put my little cardboard sword down. He's the one that sees and knows all. Not me! I can't see past my fingers, and if you cut the light off that viewpoint goes too. What's even sweeter is that He's a High Priest that can FEEL my infirmities! He's touched by my hurt and heartache. And he allows me to come boldly to His Holy throne with all of my junk and gives me mercy and grace in my time of need! And Oh God do I need Him right now.
I just can't believe how His Word has been such a counsel, healing balm, and continual guide for me. I'm reading things that I've read before, but hearing the Holy Spirit speak in ways I've never heard before! God has proven to be a VERY PRESENT HELP in the time of trouble. Who wouldn't serve a God like that! My God I praise you! For you are good and your mercy endures forever!
Sister in JESUS' name I pray that your ears, eyes, and hearts are opened to His Word. Truly they are SPIRIT and they are LIFE!
Please Read Hebrews 4:7-16
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